Peter was a regular attendee at our church. He was a 53 year old adult
with Down Syndrome who lived with his sister Amanda and her family for the past
13 years. Their love and care for Peter
has been an inspiration to us all. Peter
passed away just a few weeks ago.
Amanda’s eulogy of Peter is a moving and sometimes humorous tribute to
her brother and a reminder that all life is a precious gift of the Lord. I hope you find this to be a blessing to you as well.
Peter’s Eulogy
First of all, thank you all so much for
coming. To those of you who sent cards
and emails, called on the phone, hugged me in the hall, brought food over when
I told you I was fine—to those of you who knew what to do when I did not, you
have my utmost gratitude and thanks. To
Glenn’s family, my family, who have stood by us the last 13 years, I am
so glad for each one of you. And to the
two angels who sat with me at different times in the ICU during those last 4
days, I can never bless your heart as much as you blessed mine.
Peter was born on Sept. 1, 1958, a month
premature, and very blue. When the
pediatrician was called, he told the docs he could not come, and so my mother’s
obstetrician called another pediatrician whom we did not know, but who came
immediately. He got Peter stabilized, and after a time Peter was allowed to
come home.
As I looked at his face for the first time,
peering over my mom’s shoulder in the car, I thought he was the most beautiful
thing I had ever seen. My dad turned to
me, grieving, because after 3 daughters and wanting another son, this was not
the son he had anticipated. He said,
“Amanda, he will never be what you want him to be.” trying to shield me from
the heartache that he was feeling. But
the Lord was at work even then, because I was too young to have any
expectations. I was just happy to see
this little baby, my new playmate.
It was decided early that Peter should be
placed in an institution so as not to “hurt the other children”, so we made the
journey to check out a Training
Center that was
recommended to us. My parents were sick
at what they saw and the decision was made by them right then that Peter would
be a permanent part of our home. And so
it began.
What do you say about someone who met all
his baby milestones late; who we didn’t even know if he would meet them at
all? What do you say about someone who
never learned to drive, so never owned a car, never married or had children,
even though he talked about it all the time, someone who never went to college,
never could do the things that we take for granted? Peter had no influential job, no income to
speak of, no relationships like we have that we so treasure, no great ability
to communicate since his speech was difficult to understand, no brain that
functioned the way a “normal” person’s would.
Peter was trapped inside a body with a brain that limited what he could
do. But what he did have was an enormous
ability to make us laugh, and he had an extraordinary ability to say the wrong
thing at the right time. His imitation
of Clint Eastwood saying “Go ahead, make my day” is one for the books. He had a heart for music, so much so that had
he been typical, he would have far exceeded the talents of his sisters. He had an ability to think things through,
and it was fascinating to watch. He
loved looking at the moon, and would track its phases on the calendar. He loved
football, and understood the game better than I. He would tell us who was going to win the
Super Bowl, and had to have the official hat of the winning team -- because that was his team. We would say, “I thought the Redskins were
your team”, and Peter would respond, “Not any more!”
Peter loved Broadway musicals, and knew all
the songs from My Fair Lady, The Sound of Music, the King and
I, Camelot, Carousel, Showboat, Oklahoma, and
probably more that I am forgetting. He
loved John Denver, and knew the lyrics to probably 40 of his songs. I know, because I had to sing all of those
songs with him whenever I came home from college, or came home to visit. He listened for hours, and his memory was
quite keen. He loved Elvis Presley, and two
of the hymns chosen tonight are from an Elvis CD. He knew all of Elvis’ movies, all the songs
from those movies, and who co-starred with Elvis in each of those movies, and
was thoroughly disgusted with me when I could not remember who was in which
movie. He was so excited when Glenn
came to our home for the first time to meet our folks, and when I said, “Peter,
this is Glenn”, he thought I said, “Clint”, which is the name of the hero in
the movie, “Love me Tender”. His excitement knew no bounds, thinking that the
movie character had come to our home.
Peter was a born musician, just never had
the opportunity to perform (except in his bedroom, using his comb as his mic.) And so to you who let him pick up your violin
bow, or your cello bow, and try to play your instrument, you were giving him a
gift that neither you nor he could ever have imagined. And to you who let him put your trumpet to
his lips and try to blow, you made his day.
And to the bell choir who let him play his guitar so off key while we
practiced, I am so thankful for your patience.
And to the one who gave him a handbell, and told him when to ring it--He
loved it. And to my dear husband who cared enough to
try and tune his guitar, when it really did not matter, it was such a measure
of love. You all treated him like a typical
person, and for a special needs person, that is the gift that is priceless. Holy Ground—it puts us on Holy Ground.
Peter loved birthdays and Christmas. He loved being the center of attention—just
like any five year old. He would inform
me in June that his birthday was September 1st, as if I had
forgotten, and would remind me DAILY that his birthday was coming. And when I told him that we were skipping
September one year, and I held the calendar pages together, so that when I
flipped from August, October showed up, he
said, “Oh, no”, and flipped the calendar back to September. “See?
There it is.” There was no
fooling that one.
And his comic books—his beloved comics, of
which I am sure he has over 1000. He
would pour over them for hours, and his favorite number, #4, we think came from
the Fantastic Four.
As I was gathering Peter’s photos together
for his picture boards, I remembered how he loved to mug for the camera; how
much he loved chocolate cake with chocolate icing, with chocolate ice cream on
the side; how sweet he looked when he was asleep. I was reminded that God uses
everyone in this world to make it a better place, even those who don’t fit the “normal”
criteria; and even those who are not rich, famous, beautiful, or intelligent. When
I was in Romania this past summer, working with special needs adults, I was so
thankful for his living example, of how we are not to look at the
outward appearance, but how we are to look at the heart, just like our Lord
taught us in I Samuel 16:7. I did not
see adults with special needs, who looked different than I. I saw people who I
knew would bless my heart that week.
Peter taught me teamwork, as I came
alongside my mother, helping her care for him.
He taught me to never take life for granted, or the gifts that I have
been given for granted. He showed me unconditional
love—most of the time. Next to our mom,
he was my biggest cheerleader. Peter
sensed when I was sad, and he rejoiced when I was honored. To
watch one so dear slowly slip away from Alzheimer’s has been a grief that God
wanted me to carry; for indeed, he began to slip about 3 years ago. But I would not have traded places for
anything on this earth, because Peter had always stood by me.
I am so thankful Peter no longer suffers,
and I look forward to the day when I can actually talk to him, when we will be
reunited upon another shore, and rejoice, because neither one of us suffers any
more. The thought of having a real
conversation with him is one I will hold onto for the rest of my life. And I
can finally ask him why he threw that croquet ball at me, and almost knocked me
unconscious. Good times.
The song that Debbie and Mark are going to
play is called the “Hawaiian Love Song”.
It is from the Elvis movie “Blue Hawaii”
and it was our song. We sang it together many times, whenever we
were together. The words are:
“Wise men say, Only fools rush in, but I can’t help falling in love with you.
Shall I stay? Would it be a sin? For I can’t help falling in love with you.
Like a river flows surely to the sea, Darling so it goes, some things are meant to be.
Take my hand, take my whole life too, For I can’t help falling in love with you.”
And that just about sums it up.
Thank you so much.
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